Love's Cost and Gangland Bonds: The Unveiled Trials of Diddy's Mistress

Have you ever found yourself questioning the true price of love and loyalty? Step into the shadowy world of Staten Island's underground with me, Elliott Carterr, as I draw back the curtain on a love affair that's as intoxicating as it is destructive. Our guest, known only as Diddy's Mistress, joins us with the veil of anonymity to share her heart-wrenching story of romance with Chef Macc Moreno—a notorious figure with deep ties to gang culture. Her voice, fraught with the pain of unmet promises and the sting of betrayal, echoes the struggles of many who have fallen for the wrong person against their better judgment.

This episode isn't just another scandal; it's a compelling journey through the highs and lows of a tumultuous relationship that lays bare the raw emotions of its participants. Listen as Diddy's Mistress recounts the pivotal moments that pushed her to the brink and the strength it took to seek the closure she desperately needed. From her passionate message of love and resentment to her stark warning for Diddy to keep his distance, the narrative weaves through the stark reality of her experiences. It's a candid exploration of personal growth and the quest for dignity in the face of lost love that you won't want to miss.

Transcript

Speaker 1: 0:33

I know you can hear me now, forever. I love you. I love you. When I found out that you were leaving me, I couldn't sleep, thinking about all the things that we've been through. Now all I want to do is tell you that I miss you so much. You're not in your way. I know you can hear me now, forever. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you so much. I know that in time I'll find someone to fight.

Speaker 1: 1:32

You'll be my baby, so I won't, won't, won't, won't. We're talking about you, but I still love you, love you. You know I'll never give up on you. I know you can hear me now forever, I love you.

Speaker 2: 1:52

I love you. Reporting live from the motherfucking gutter. It's your boy, elliot Carter, and it's a special episode today, a very special episode today, as we speak on somebody that's very renowned in Staten Island and in the gang culture and gang life, and somebody that likes to take advantage In vulnerable situations and has been proven to do this time and time again, and that is Chef Mac Moreno that I'm speaking on. But I'm here with Diddy's Mistress and we're gonna speak on a few things. Let's talk. What's your name?

Speaker 1: 2:48

I'm gonna just stay as an anonymous for now. Anonymous.

Speaker 2: 2:52

Yes, anonymous. So if you know, if you know, you know what to do. Pretty much Okay, I can jack that. I can jack that when you from.

Speaker 1: 3:03

Well, I was born in Brooklyn but I was raised up in Staten Island. I left Brooklyn when I was nine, so pretty much a Staten Island head.

Speaker 2: 3:14

Okay, and are you still in Staten Island now? No, I live in Jersey. Okay, okay, I'm not gonna ask too much detail into where you live. We'll leave it at that. We'll leave it at Jersey. So how'd you meet Diddy?

Speaker 1: 3:35

I met him in Passend, for honestly, I think it was like back in like 2010.

Speaker 2: 3:41

Okay.

Speaker 1: 3:44

Yeah, my brain now a little too fuzzy, but I think it was 2010.

Speaker 2: 3:48

Okay alright, so what's your reason for joining me here today?

Speaker 1: 3:58

Well, it's a lot that I've been seeing on the Elliott Carter show and there was one story in particular that I peed that it's pretty much you were saying how that ago diddy owe you bread. So I'm already in my feelings about him because he kinda really pissed me off about you know, he was supposed to be real and I'm kinda really, really, really, really like on the fucking edge with him.

Speaker 2: 4:31

Okay, talk to me a little bit more about that. Why are you so on edge with him? What's that about?

Speaker 1: 4:38

So, like you said, mistress right, quote on quote, but that's not how it was supposed to be.

Speaker 2: 4:48

So you didn't know that was your position.

Speaker 1: 4:52

Well, I can't say I didn't know that it wasn't my position, but I mean, if you gonna say you gonna leave somebody, you're supposed to leave somebody, you know Like you're not supposed to lead and string me on, like it's just you told me you gonna leave your girl for me and that's not what happened. So I don't know. I'm just it's like niggaz, act like they real, and it's just mm-mm. That's all I gotta really say about that.

Speaker 2: 5:24

So what exactly did happen? How long have y'all been dealing with each other?

Speaker 1: 5:33

It's been a little minute now, Like I can't even really put too much numbers on it, Like, if I like, about four years. Yeah, four years is good.

Speaker 2: 5:45

Yeah, four years, okay, okay, so before he had his son? Yeah, okay, so was he honest with you about his son?

Speaker 1: 5:55

Yeah, he was. He was rarely open about that. I was never, you know, I never felt no way about his son and I always love the fact that he spoke about him and just All right.

Speaker 2: 6:08

So let me ask you this You're upset at the fact that he didn't leave, but you've been a side bitch for four years. How much longer did you expect? Like what's he supposed to? Did he have a cut off point at when he was supposed to do this?

Speaker 1: 6:31

I think what it was is I kept giving him so many chances to get to that cut off point. It's like every time he keeps saying, oh, this is the time I'm done this and that, and then he'd be right back, yeah, and it just kept going on and on. And I guess, yeah, like you said, it accumulated to the four years that we've been dealing with one another and it's just like I didn't really see it as it being a problem that he was gonna. You know, I knew that he was gonna leave her. That was the thought that I had. He made me feel like he was gonna leave her. He made me feel like I was gonna only be the only one he's gonna move in with me, Like we was talking real, real, real crazy about, you know, just making our own family.

Speaker 1: 7:19

You don't have to say just having real, real life shit.

Speaker 2: 7:23

So would you say that was the final straw? Because I remember you saying, when I first started texting you, he was supposed to move in on January 1st, so him not showing up, was that like the final straw? That was the final straw for me? Definitely, and that's what made you contact me. It sure was, and how did you? You said you saw my stories and that's what made you hit me.

Speaker 1: 7:47

Yeah, like I said in the beginning, when I teach your stories about all of this shit. So I'm like you know what matter matter as well, and just see what you want. Maybe want to see what the fuck I had to say.

Speaker 2: 7:58

Yeah, definitely, definitely, absolutely. And you told me some interesting things about about some of the things that you did to Diddy. I wanna share that with the world. No, no, I know, I know, I know that's not your vibes, that's not what you're trying to do, but you know, I just think it's important for people to know who they're dealing with and the type of things that you know these big gangsta niggas are into. You know, right, he's somebody big, he's somebody special to Staten Island and the Crip culture. So talk to me about your sex life with Diddy. Was he good in bed? Good is an understatement. Okay, elaborate on that a little bit.

Speaker 1: 8:51

Yeah, I mean, since you already got me going here, I might as well, you know like I mean, he's real good in bed, like, don't get me wrong, he know how to make me feel, he know how to make me. You know, just Let loose forget. It don't matter what it is. It could be a drunk night, it could be a drunk night. Drunk night. Drunk night to be different.

Speaker 2: 9:14

Yeah, I know that I think I love drinking honey too.

Speaker 1: 9:18

Yeah, it's just, he's somebody that make me feel whole Like when he touched me. It's just a different type of feel, like something that you don't get from somebody else you know like. So just put me in a different type of you know part of my mindset with him. That's why I kind of really like just couldn't let him go. A part of that Like you know, you know what that they good like. It's just like oh shit, you can't let your big, you can't let your big big one go now.

Speaker 2: 9:43

Yeah yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. I feel you.

Speaker 1: 9:47

But we, you can let me, like experiment, do a lot of like crazy shit. You know, Experiment what you mean, yeah, I mean, like you know, like I might, like you know, put a little finger in his eyes, what Hold on?

Speaker 2: 10:04

I'm gonna stop what.

Speaker 1: 10:07

Say that again. What you mean, like what's wrong with that? Like I will put a little finger in his eyes. You know, if I'm like you know sucking on it, you know licking up and down and you know, and then I just like might poke a little finger there. But hold on, you know, I might lick down your first real quick, then put my finger in it, you know just to get him a little bit there's even nothing wrong with that and you jacked that.

Speaker 1: 10:26

I mean, what's wrong? I'm, I'm, if I'm his girl and I'm the one doing it today. What's the problem?

Speaker 2: 10:34

I mean honestly I think. I think that's just like Batiman activities, like you know what I'm saying. Like, first of all, no girl is playing anywhere around my asshole and if you do, you're gonna catch a stiff jab. I promise you that.

Speaker 1: 10:52

Oh God. Well, everybody's sex life in preference is different. I mean, it's different to say, if he's allowing a nigga to do that to him, that you could call him Batiman and do whatever the fuck you want to say it is. But then today I don't got none of that. I have a vagina. So if me, as a female, is doing that to my man, it shouldn't be considered as gay. If you like me to lick down there a few times and while I'm, whatever the case may be, ain't nothing wrong with that, like what.

Speaker 2: 11:21

Yes, there is something wrong with that, because, as a straight man, there should be no type of activity in or around my asshole. You said you put your finger in his ass.

Speaker 1: 11:35

So I might like put a little knuckle in there. Not the whole thing I like there's, no, I mean like a little knuckle, that's O-D a knuckle.

Speaker 2: 11:46

I would have put my knuckle in your fucking face. The fucking girl could shoot. No, I can't jack that. I can't jack that.

Speaker 1: 11:56

I mean it should it is what it is, can't take that one back.

Speaker 2: 12:02

That's unacceptable, all right. So what else? What else? What else? What I mean?

Speaker 1: 12:07

you see me doing that. Obviously keep coming back, so it's me that had to cut him off.

Speaker 2: 12:15

But how did you cut him off if he didn't come and move in with you on?

Speaker 1: 12:19

January 1st, because of the fact that I'm here, right, I'm here talking to you. If I wasn't done, I wouldn't be doing this.

Speaker 2: 12:31

Okay, that makes sense. Is he still in your DMs? Is he still hitting you up?

Speaker 1: 12:36

Of course, always, I mean.

Speaker 2: 12:47

No way Fucking um, alright. So which are falling out now? What's your plans moving on? I Mean.

Speaker 1: 12:59

well, right now I'm working in a bank, so I'm just trying to, you know, get into management While I'm in there, really just get to the top. You know, focus on my son, just make sure that he gets everything that he needs and make sure that his mom has been around your son.

Speaker 2: 13:19

Yes, he has, so he's he's been active around your son very much, yeah, so when he didn't show up, that must have really hurt your feelings.

Speaker 1: 13:31

More than hurt my feelings, I broke me.

Speaker 2: 13:36

That was my breaking point and you say I've been dealing with each other for years, yep, for years. All right, so how can? How do I know you're really done?

Speaker 1: 13:51

That's hard to like, you know, say in a sense, because You're not gonna know what life could bring, but at the same time we could end up being friends at the end of the day. We don't always have to not be in each other's life. I'm not gonna say that I'm never, gonna ever talk to him again. I like get a point. But you know, it was just, I just got to set more boundaries for myself, did you love him, of course.

Speaker 2: 14:24

Do you think he loved you? I?

Speaker 1: 14:28

Believe he loved the idea of me.

Speaker 2: 14:34

Damn, that's deep. So let me ask you that again do you think that he loved you as a, as a person?

Speaker 1: 14:46

I Can't say he didn't love me. He did a lot of things to show me that he Cared, and you have a bunch of some pampers. Yeah, I Think that kind of really Not only just the pampers, but you know, just providing For him and just making sure that he's straight, and you know, making sure I'm straight, that I could make sure he's straight. That's another part that made me love him.

Speaker 2: 15:12

Yeah, Okay, okay. So what are some of your plans moving forward? I know I know you said him not being there Hurt financially. You want to elaborate on that a little bit. Like he left you in a tight situation.

Speaker 1: 15:32

He did a lot for me. Well, I didn't have to Struggle or I had to figure out what's my next move.

Speaker 2: 15:42

Okay, so you're saying he gave you money.

Speaker 1: 15:44

Yeah.

Speaker 2: 15:46

And now that he's not gonna be there, that's like a lost income.

Speaker 1: 15:51

Definitely severely.

Speaker 2: 15:56

So what are you gonna do to replace that?

Speaker 1: 15:59

I Just gotta do what I gotta do and Work hard, try to get that promotion and if not, you know, find something else and different endeavors. Just stay strong for my son, stay strong for me, because if I'm not old one, I can't, you know, be there for him.

Speaker 2: 16:17

Is your son's father active?

Speaker 1: 16:20

No, not at all. That nigga never been. No, not at all.

Speaker 2: 16:34

Hmm nigga to even show up to the birth so Losing did he is like losing a potential father figure, then, my son loved him, yeah, and I think it hurts from some times here in a mask or him and yeah, l he ever cook for you.

Speaker 1: 17:03

All the time, all the time.

Speaker 2: 17:07

If I could say one thing about Ditty, he could really cook, man listen.

Speaker 1: 17:12

The plate getting licked.

Speaker 2: 17:19

What was your favorite thing that he made you?

Speaker 1: 17:25

I'm a breakfast girl, so I'ma definitely say the chicken and waffles that right there, I wouldn't even leave no meat on that bone.

Speaker 2: 17:33

Okay, he made the henny chicken and waffles for you. Mm-hmm, that infusion there. Yeah, that's the same. I actually did that meal with him. We sold that meal publicly and we actually made some money together doing that yeah that fuck nigga. Yeah, but you said so. You was my friend a few years ago on Facebook or Instagram, whatever, when you seen me and him going back and forth at it in the first place, and that's what made you originally hit me, yeah.

Speaker 1: 18:14

Yeah, that's crazy. Seeing that shit obviously ain't going too often.

Speaker 2: 18:19

Yeah, nah, it's not. I mean it's crazy. Do you feel like he changed towards you at all when he had his son? No, Not really no.

Speaker 1: 18:36

So he was pretty open with you along the way about Everything yeah, and I think that's why I felt trusting enough to believe his word every time.

Speaker 2: 18:47

Yeah, I feel it. I feel it. I feel it. I can jack that. I can definitely jack that. Do you have anything you want to say to Diddy, because he's definitely going to hear this? You can speak directly to him right now. This is your opportunity.

Speaker 1: 19:14

Diddy, I loved you. I loved you, but you were toxic stain in my life that obviously I had to have a rebremover. But you did that for me. You made your decision and I hope you stand on that, because 2024, don't come knocking on my door.

Speaker 2: 19:45

That's that Damn, I feel you. Another broken heart to mend. Another disappointment. The Crip community in Staten Island has been let down ultimately by this big homie mook Claiming to be a payback general. Just another sad, disappointing story, the story of a mistress and a let down. It's your boy, elliot Carter, reporting live from the gutter, and that was an interview with Diddy's Mistress. Thank you all for listening.